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there's a girl in my mirror crying toninght, and there's nothing i can say to make her feel alright
she said, she wish she saved all her tears for the man tore her heart apart so she can let him drown in there
she had ceased the crying suddenly, from that i knew her heart had turned to cold

then she smiled and smashed the mirror with her fist because starting today she's never look back


















PSYCHO

Selasa, 29 Desember 2009
22.55

i weird sometimes, i prefer the be lonely but sometimes i hate the sound of silence
so i dressed up like dreams, and pretend i'm free

hari ini gue kambuh lagi, wtf bgt deh yee. dari pertama kali gue sadar punya penyakit beginian juga gue udah ngindarin tuh ngmg sm orang orang, daripada ntr kambuh tiba-tiba kan ngerriih -____________- hari ini gue udah bikin orang yang bisa dianggep sangat gue sayang gelap mata untuk kedua kalinya, yeeepp dia masih orang yg samaa. Gue buat dia tadi emosi banget smpe hampir gebukin gue. yaa ini kedua kalinya sih, jadi gue agak rilex dikit tadiii ahaha.

kalo ditanya gue masih gila apa nggak, gue jaawab gue nggak tau, karena gue nggak sadar bos kalo kambuh keanya sih udah nggak. gue tadi udah g pake backstreet2 tuh nunjuikin gue gilenya, nyokap gue kakakkakak gue pada tau kook, nah itu yang bikin gue sakittttt cara pandangnya mereka itu looh..... entah nunjukin takut, marah, atau cuma apa gue ga ngerti. yang jelas sekarang gue benerbener ngerasa GAGAL gue gagal bikin seneng mereka, yang paling tajem tuh emak gue, dia org yang gue sayang banget padahal "mama udah seneng punya anak pinter kea kamu, tapi ko aneh ha..haha.." walaupun gue jawabnya dengan ketawa sambil nangis padahal itu gue ketusuk banget.

kalo ditanya tujuan gue kenapa nulis blog gini, sebenernya buat sebagai pengakuan gue record list gue deh jadi kalo misalnya gue tiba-tiba kenapa ada record listnya jaga-jaga aja kalo misalnya gue parah apa gimaana ye gaa? i'm not kinda girl who writes diary or love drama movie gitu. i don't know who i am right now, seriously dude.

i have plenty of dreams, terlalu banyak maalah. tapi kalo yang namanya gue kambuh gue bisa aja lupa tuh semua impian gue dan jadi langsung ngerasa gagal. bahaya kaan, makanya gue besok mau see a psychiatrist to fix myself dude, pray for mee yeeeh