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Slash me

there's a girl in my mirror crying toninght, and there's nothing i can say to make her feel alright
she said, she wish she saved all her tears for the man tore her heart apart so she can let him drown in there
she had ceased the crying suddenly, from that i knew her heart had turned to cold

then she smiled and smashed the mirror with her fist because starting today she's never look back


















PSYCHO

Sabtu, 09 Januari 2010
10.49

1. Guys hate sluts.

2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" - two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

11. Guys get jealous easily.

12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never
mind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

17. Guys are very open about themselves.

18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23. Guys will brag about anything.

24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you.

25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if 1 guy's confused, then we're all confused.

27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.

29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

37. Guys don't really have final decisions.

38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

Kamis, 07 Januari 2010
04.32

too depressed these days. too many chasers.


kambuh lagi.

gue bikin seorang cewe bisa kabur dari gue dengan cepat dan langsung block msn gue karena gue kambuh di depan dia. ini dia chat conversationnya, and yep she is the girl that daniel's flirting to, another bitch, but still i'm the bitchiest :p

1/7/2010 7:14:06 PM K! Jelita hmm satu kalimatnya deh
1/7/2010 7:14:36 PM Jelita K! Ya dia suka sm gue katanya gitu2
1/7/2010 7:14:43 PM K! Jelita eh jangan bilang ya kalo gue tau
1/7/2010 7:14:44 PM Jelita K! Trs kan gue suka sm jambrong trs dia maksa2.
1/7/2010 7:14:53 PM Jelita K! He e
1/7/2010 7:15:27 PM K! Jelita ohhh gtuu doang, daniel mah sm semua cewe juga gt haha gue kira gmane
1/7/2010 7:15:34 PM K! Jelita oh lo deket nih sm jambrong?
1/7/2010 7:16:10 PM K! Jelita itu mah daniel cuma bercanda doang, jgn masukin hati ahha
1/7/2010 7:16:18 PM Jelita K! Iya,emg knp?
1/7/2010 7:17:41 PM K! Jelita kita deket sm org yg sama yaa haha
1/7/2010 7:17:53 PM Jelita K! Suka ya sm jambrong aha?
1/7/2010 7:18:17 PM K! Jelita gaa, jambrong deketin gue dari lama haha
1/7/2010 7:18:39 PM Jelita K! Ooh gitu ya haha
1/7/2010 7:18:46 PM Jelita K! Ambil aja haha
1/7/2010 7:18:56 PM K! Jelita tapi tenang aja kok, selama lo g ambil daniel gue g akan ambil jambrong
1/7/2010 7:19:18 PM K! Jelita lagi pula gue juga masih ada maslah sm daniel jadi g mgkn gue langsung pindah k jambrong gt laaah ahha
1/7/2010 7:19:38 PM K! Jelita tapi kl mau ambil daniel juga g pp sih
1/7/2010 7:19:42 PM K! Jelita :)
1/7/2010 7:19:51 PM Jelita K! Tp ambil aja kali aha whatsoever
1/7/2010 7:20:21 PM K! Jelita iya dah tuh lu mamem aja dua2nya ce
1/7/2010 7:20:30 PM K! Jelita daniel nganggep lo perek doang kok
1/7/2010 7:21:01 PM Jelita K! Apasih kok lo yg sewot
1/7/2010 7:21:06 PM Jelita K! Emg gue suka sm daniel?
1/7/2010 7:21:09 PM Jelita K! Gak kali
1/7/2010 7:21:30 PM K! Jelita :P sante sante gue bercanda doang tadi


quite harsh isnt it? at the end gue sih bilangnya cuma bercanda g mungkin juga kan klo gue bilang "sorry ya gue kambuh gue punya penyakit mental!" ahha ya mau gmn lagi just over it and walk away bitch! :p


00.26

congratulation bitch, you are cheated on by him

another lightning struck hit me one more time, and left me shattered into thousand pieces

the feeling is not as bad as usual though, but i wish i could cry a river and let him drown in there


eventually, i set free something that i love because i learned in the previous relationship, i know to love someone is to give that person power to break heart.


LOVE ME OR HATE ME, I'M STILL GONNA SHINE

Kamis, 31 Desember 2009
00.21

An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in. A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves

i want it's going fast, to do new resolutions.

still no call for him, his motive is obvious: sex. this is what i called broken heart. this is what i frightened of. heartbreak. well he's a rockstar, no one can blame him.

this is me once again,
shattered into pieces.


like someone said, "without you the days are moanday, tearsday, wastedday, thirstday, frightday, SHATTEREDDAY, sadday"

Rabu, 30 Desember 2009
07.23

walaupun tanda-tanda penyakit mental gue ini jelas dan cukup sangat jelas untuk disadari sama diri gue sendiri, gue memutuskan untuk ga akan ke psikiater. adanya klo kesono gue jadi makin ada status gue gila dan mesti menjalani pengobatan padahal gue ini orang yang yakin dengan teori "let it flow dan g ush diinget2". tapi gue tetep aja mikirn hal yang negaaatif muluuu g pernah positif gt mulai dari pikiran pacar gue udah g sayang sm gue lah atau gue ragu di UN lahh dan yang parahnya pikiran ini membawa gue ke aktifitas-aktifitas yang ga bener, kea udah mulai selingkuh duluan dari cowo gue padahal belom tentu kan? di salah satu sisi gue saat lagi sadar kea skrg, ada sesuatu yang bilang kalo semua ini cuma sebuah gabungan dari pikiran semu gue, satu2nya cara ngilanginnyaa ya gue harus seneng2 aktivitas bnyak biar lupa dah well i dont wanna end up in prison or somewhere else because i've done stupid thing karena gue gila atau apa ya, gue g mau bikin org yang gue sayang sedih kea contohnya emak gue tadi pagiii. hmm gue selalu inget quote si fira tabrani pas dia tau gue mau mati "ping, lo tuh pinter masa depan lo tuh pasti ada, lo mesti bisa jaga diri lo baik-baik"yeep selain bikin gue gr, quote ini juga buat gue memikir 1000 kali untuk nelen pil sianida (sok nazi banget yaaa)

Selasa, 29 Desember 2009
22.55

i weird sometimes, i prefer the be lonely but sometimes i hate the sound of silence
so i dressed up like dreams, and pretend i'm free

hari ini gue kambuh lagi, wtf bgt deh yee. dari pertama kali gue sadar punya penyakit beginian juga gue udah ngindarin tuh ngmg sm orang orang, daripada ntr kambuh tiba-tiba kan ngerriih -____________- hari ini gue udah bikin orang yang bisa dianggep sangat gue sayang gelap mata untuk kedua kalinya, yeeepp dia masih orang yg samaa. Gue buat dia tadi emosi banget smpe hampir gebukin gue. yaa ini kedua kalinya sih, jadi gue agak rilex dikit tadiii ahaha.

kalo ditanya gue masih gila apa nggak, gue jaawab gue nggak tau, karena gue nggak sadar bos kalo kambuh keanya sih udah nggak. gue tadi udah g pake backstreet2 tuh nunjuikin gue gilenya, nyokap gue kakakkakak gue pada tau kook, nah itu yang bikin gue sakittttt cara pandangnya mereka itu looh..... entah nunjukin takut, marah, atau cuma apa gue ga ngerti. yang jelas sekarang gue benerbener ngerasa GAGAL gue gagal bikin seneng mereka, yang paling tajem tuh emak gue, dia org yang gue sayang banget padahal "mama udah seneng punya anak pinter kea kamu, tapi ko aneh ha..haha.." walaupun gue jawabnya dengan ketawa sambil nangis padahal itu gue ketusuk banget.

kalo ditanya tujuan gue kenapa nulis blog gini, sebenernya buat sebagai pengakuan gue record list gue deh jadi kalo misalnya gue tiba-tiba kenapa ada record listnya jaga-jaga aja kalo misalnya gue parah apa gimaana ye gaa? i'm not kinda girl who writes diary or love drama movie gitu. i don't know who i am right now, seriously dude.

i have plenty of dreams, terlalu banyak maalah. tapi kalo yang namanya gue kambuh gue bisa aja lupa tuh semua impian gue dan jadi langsung ngerasa gagal. bahaya kaan, makanya gue besok mau see a psychiatrist to fix myself dude, pray for mee yeeeh